So let’s see then…what we’re talking about here is a leave of absence with no prior warning, one of some length (nearly two months). I’d like to say that I’ve been off learning new things, gathering new thoughts and collecting more paranoid insights, but actually I’ve just been busy with some mundane things in life and some not so mundane.

I could tell you about how I nearly caused a fall out of nuclear proportions with one of my bestest friends because of my need to have him pander to my childish insecurities and my inability to see myself as others see me.

I could tell you about Bonobo and our six-month anniversary and being welcomed open armed and with such love by his family.

I could tell you about the full on argument with Big Brother Junior, the screaming the shouting, the flinging of accusations and the hot, angry tears.

I could tell you about my new job and how I have finally settled in and shed my ‘new girl’ skin, and how my boss makes me laugh so much. How the company has just as much (if not more) red tape and politics that the last.

I can tell you about another dear friend who felt as though her world was falling apart but who somehow found that bit of strength she needed to start piecing it back together bit by bit. And about how proud I am of her for not giving in easily, for fighting it all tooth and nail.

I could tell you how the blackness which used to threaten to smother me sometimes still creeps in through the teeniest portals, preventing me from defeating my self-created notions of what a terrible person I am. What a bitch and a fraud I am.

And I could tell you about I’ve been the most happiest I can remember being for a long time.

But even with all those goings on, I just haven’t felt much like writing *GASP* and besides I’ve pretty much just told you it all in a nutshell!

I’m back now and hopefully I’ll be writing a little more regularly (if we ever manage to get with technology and sort out some broadband for our gaff).

In the meantime, thank you to all you lovely regulars (you know who you are) who’ve been popping by to check up on me, despite my rude silence. You guys….you’re way too cool for school!

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