The ex-bastard told me he loved me within four weeks of us seeing each other. I got totally freaked out and told him that he was being stupid. I thought then that maybe there was something weird about our relationship but I thought, what the hell? And as much as I rant about him now, honestly, I do have a great affection for him. We had a fantastic 8 months together and 2 not so good ones.

Yes he was a shit to go back to ex within a week, and get engaged within a few months, but you know what? I'm glad I went through that with him, because I used to worry that I'd end up settling. Now I know that I really won't settle for second best, that I have the strength to test the water, but more importantly that I'm not that weak-willed, head-burying girl I used to be. The one who used to stay in relationships that were totally wrong for her. The abusive ones, the loveless ones, the ones where she didn't feel it for the other person, or where she felt they didn't feel it for her. I'm not her anymore, clinging to something that isn't right. I have the strength to say enough's enough now. And I can also say that the world will not end if yet another guy breaks up with me.

I can safely say I don't miss her.

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